We all long for fullness in our lives, don’t we? I know I do. I want to be full of love, full of life, full of joy, full of peace. It always brings me such joy when someone tells me just how much they see all this in me. Life just doesn’t feel right when I’m only half full—or worse, empty—when it comes to these areas. But here’s the question: we all desire to be full, but how often do we actually allow ourselves to experience complete fullness in Jesus? Are we so deeply rooted in Him that He sustains us entirely, or are we more comfortable standing in the shallow end, just close enough to feel like we have control?
This thought always takes me back to the story of Jesus walking on water. Peter, sitting in the boat, calls out to Jesus, asking Him to invite him to come out onto the water if it’s truly Him. But Peter didn’t really need Jesus to say that—he was already in the boat, already with Him. I picture it like this: Jesus tells Peter to come, and Peter starts by dipping just his toes in. Kind of like when we test the water before jumping into a pool or a hot bath—just the toes, to check if it’s safe. Then Peter inches out, holding onto the boat for dear life. Slowly, he lets go and takes another step. But as fear starts to take over, he sinks. And just as quickly, Jesus is there to catch him, to pull him back up. In that moment, Peter is fully engulfed in Jesus.
Now, if I’m being honest, it would take a lot for me to step out of a boat and trust that I’ll be safe, walking toward Jesus—or anyone, for that matter.
I wrote this poem in 2024, reflecting on my own journey. As I sat down, trying to discern what God wanted me to share in this season, I felt a gentle nudge to focus on being in the fullness of God. During times of prayer and fasting, it becomes clearer where God doesn’t yet have complete devotion in my life. And honestly, it’s in those spaces that I realize just how much I long to experience His fullness. So I ask myself the question, how deep must I go Lord? Where am I now?
The Fullness (2024)
My Beloved, step into the waters.
Just the tip of your feet, testing it out.
What good is your devotion here?
A single step and you are out.
My Beloved, step into the waters.
Okay, you are knee deep now, slow moving.
What good is your devotion here?
A large wave and you'll turn back.
My Beloved, step into the waters.
Now you are closer, chest deep, enough to wade.
What good is your devotion here?
One fright and you'll go under.
My Beloved, Dive into the waters.
That is the fullness, completely consumed.
What good is your devotion here?
My child, you are in my fullness here, consumed and whole
Only Good can come from this depth of devotion.
